Graduation

2 months and 9 days until I graduate from high school.

This is all I can think about. 

We've been in quarantine for three weeks now. I haven't had the hardest time being in quarantine, for a matter a fact, I've been enjoying it! But the thoughts of prom and graduation linger continuously. I'm in the unknown of how the rest of this year will play out and it sucks!!

I haven't let the fear of the virus effect my mental health. I have faith in God and I know he has it in his hands. Until today. Today reality kinda hit me. I was sitting on my bed, thinking about the time I was in preschool and how I had to be friends with everyone in the class. Then my mind raced to the time I moved to Lacey in 4th grade and I met friends that I'd grow up with into high school. I remembered my first homecoming with my best friend. I remembered dancing my heart out at football games when I was on dance team. I thought about my final homecoming, and then I thought about today. I thought about how my senior year quickly ended. And I didn't even realize it.

Graduation is one of the biggest days of a students life. We are being acknowledged and rewarded for our handwork. It's a day you look forward to from the time you enter kindergarten. It's the day that marks your time up as a kid. Not to mention, I'll be 18 in 2 months and 5 days. Time really does fly! But I do really feel like I've been betrayed. Like I've been given the short end of the stick. Thankfully its not official that graduation will be canceled, but Its leaning in that direction.

2 months and 9 days from today, I don't wanna be given the short end of the stick. I want it to be a day of gratitude.

All I can continue to do is pray. Have faith. And trust in God. 

I know you are all panicked too. I know we all are feeling kinda desperate at this point. Our days feel long and we're bored out of our minds. But lets appreciate this time. Rest, heal, get things done, grow in your relationship with God. This to shall pass. We will graduate from this bump in the road (hence the title).

We all have been through things. We've been hurt, broken, lied to, stolen from. You name it. We all have been through something. But we always bounce back. I know for myself, I've been through a lot. Probably more than a kid should ever go through, but I've made it out stronger than I ever was. I graduated.

And I know you will graduate from this too. Graduate meaning overcome.

Oh and stop complaining. I know you've said you hate your job or you hate school. I'm guilty too, but I wish was in school right now. I wish I was sitting in class with all my peers. Because these are the times that will be missed. And us humans take things for granted. So hopefully this quarantine has taught you to not take things for granted. Appreciate where your at in life. All these moments are pure GOLD.

Say I love you, say I'm sorry, don't dwell on the small things, call your grandma she probably misses you and love life.

What is meant to be, will be.

With that being said, I love you all. Stay healthy and safe,

xoxo, Bella <3