"My idea of a plan"

Hi. Long time no see. As I write this, I'm trying to type out my excuse as to why I haven't blogged in so long, but here's the truth; life swallowed me into this deep dark hole about 11 months ago.. oh it was bad. But! Life is good now. Not just good...life's beautiful. Beautiful to me is not just a pretty appearance, but a personality of a person who is really good to you but can also throw cruveballs at you and tear you apart, because that is life. Period. 
It's my senior year of high school and it's been weird. Not weird in a bad way, but weird in a way of what to expect. It's weird to me that I'm gonna be 18 in June, and graduated, ready to begin my life. I swear I was 15 last week, beginning my sophomore year of high school, and 5 a month ago learning how to ride a bike. People continually ask me, "what are your plans after high school?". I used to freeze up and panic because I thought I should have a plan already. I thought I should already have my career choice and college in mind. Well, so I thought. But, I don't need to know all that right now! For the longest time, I was losing sleep over this and catching myself being so distracted daily because, I thought I needed a plan right away. Teachers don't mention the choice of not having to go straight into college or not going into college at all, nor telling me its okay to not have a plan! Without YouTube and the people around me, I probably would have applied to some college, with some career in mind, but I'd be miserable and not wanting to go. But, thanks to the internet and the influence of so many people, I now know that IT IS OK TO NOT WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE! Oh how I wish I knew this sooner! It would of saved me a lot of stress. I'm not saying I'm never going to college, I just don't quite have that apart of "my idea of a plan". Or God's plan. I say "my idea of a plan." because in reality....no one has a plan. Life throws curveballs, God throws curveballs and nothing ever goes as planned!! You might think you have a plan, but its an idea of a plan because things always change! This is why I constantly pray and ask God for direction and guidance with life. Why live in the mindset of "what the heck comes next?", when your life's already been planned out and God is there to help you figure it out? 
My goal with this post is to inspire you to do what YOU love. Whether or not you chose/choose to go to college, having a career or job that you love is what matters. I feel as if us humans just go to college for a degree (that some people don't even use) for our career of choice, raise a family and work 40 hours a week until we die. As brutal and sad as that sounds, this scenario is usually the truth. We work to survive. Not to live. What I mean by live is, seeing the world, trying new things, DOING WHAT YOU LOVE! Some of these things do cost money, but living life is supposed be full of bliss and learning, not sitting in an office all day (If you like to sit in an office all day, by all means do it), but to follow your heart. Even if you don't have it all figured out or "planned out", do what makes you happy! When I think about my future, I think of traveling the world, being a videographer, photographer, writing a book and helping people. These are the things that make me happy. These are the things that I love to do. I know life isn't always going to be full of bliss and we all have rough days, but depending on the mindset you have or the lifestyle that you want, life can be blissful and you can do whatever you put your mind to!! I wish people took this more serious and didn't settle for less then what they deserve. You have the whole world in your hands and you are capable of doing anything you want. You just have to work hard. And its never to late to restart. 
As of now, "my idea of a plan" is to follow the path God has for me, work hard and do what makes me happy, but stay prepared for life's curveballs. 
Anyway, I hope this is a motivational new years pick me up post that inspired you to change somethings around, with a bit of incite of where I'm at in life. You reading this means so much to me!

xoxo, Bella  

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